I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul

All rightey! That time has come...

Yes! I'm closing this blog.

I thought the idea of re-reading
some of my entries would be nice
but I think it's just making me
hold on to the past.

You know, the past where I used to
have JC friends, CCA's, TSD and
lots of drama in my life over
girls I had crushes on.

It's quite SHOCKING for me when
I checked to see how long this
blog has been active...

FIVE YEARS.. FIVE!

And the first post I wrote
had words like "ferz" and "ROX"

Errr... WTH! I didn't know I was
one of THOSE people!

And OMG the HAIR! I look like
I had one of those Chinese fans
on top my head!

Amazing! Simply amazing..

Thank you to those who've bothered
to read and comment on my dramatic
ramblings...

But there are some things that I'd
like to forget... Some parts of my
past that I'd like to let go of..
Some people I'd like to let go of..

And I'm doing it right now!

Breathe in....

Breathe out...

MOVED ON!

It ended as quickly as it had begun.

I would like to thank you for everything that
you've shown and taught me in this short
time we had together.

You showed me what true love was when
you sacrificed your interests and put mine
before them...

And I've never experienced that.

You taught me to be assertive and not
laugh things off when it gets hard.

You taught me to take care of #1 first before
anybody else and for that I thank you because
this is something I need to be now.

You showed me what true love was when
you harshly told me about my weaknesses
so that I would wake up and do something
about it...

But you did it too much that I felt small.

And for that, I thank you because despite
all these things, you've shown me how I
should NOT be treated.

From the way you throw tantrums at the
smallest things to the way you'd speak
so conceitedly and sometimes
condescendingly to me.

That's not how I deserve to be treated.

You've taught me that "hot" girls are insecure
and what I should have looked for instead was
"beauty".

Beauty that radiates from within and glows on
the outside, whether you're "hot" or not.

And for that I thank you.

The past few weeks felt more like a power
struggle (that sickened me to my stomach)
rather than a beautiful relationship.

And just for your information, that's why...

It ended as quickly as it had begun.

- 17th Aug 2010

I don't know what's going on but this has probably
been the BEST START to the year in 21 years!

First week : Passed my driving test on my first try! YAYYY!

Second week : Drove my uncle's BMW! DOUBLE YAYYY!

Third week : Made a truckload of money and had a MAJOR breakthrough during my preview! TRIPLE YAYYY!

Forth week : Have had not one but TWO MAJOR deals that will get me ON STAGE and having TONS OF FUN (and getting paid good money to do it!) Hundred thousand YAYYYY!!!!

And tomorrow's my birthday so to make it an EXTRAORDINARY start, I've got some loose ends (I'm not proud of btw) to tie up and then I'm ready to TAKE THE STAGE!

2009... was a year of ambivalence.

Made a crazy decision.

Spent way too much time getting ready.

Made myself vulnerable and got hurt.. but it was worth it.

All in all, it was a year where I matured... and lost a bit of my idealism maybe.

♥ My Autumn Is Coming My Way ♥

I still don't believe she just
laughed off my feelings as if
they were insignificant when
all I feel for her is pure love.

I deserve someone who loves me
as much as I do she.

Looks like I was wrong.

She isn't the one.

MOVED ON.

This is for every guy who has a crush on a girl but is in the "friend zone" right now...